Sick Sucks and/or Insecurity

So,I'm sick and it sucks. My throat is soar and my head feels like it's full of cotton. It's no fun. OK, I'm done complaining.
Anyway, the first voice over is tonight, voice over is the graduate run reading program at EWU, and I'm super excited to go and hear some of the second years read. And there is a party afterward, so the whole thing should be a good time. But here's the thing, I still feel so overwhelmed when I go to all of these events. It's like, I feel like I need to prove myself, and until I have I'm going to continue fumbling around trying to figure out what I'm doing here. And I know that tonight is suppose to be fun, but I'll feel anxious all night worrying about making a good impression. I'm sure i"ll feel better once i either a.) send my work out for workshop or b.) find out about the Willow Springs internship stuff. But until then, I guess I'll just keep meandering through life.